A strange collection-1

Nowadays, I have got a strange hobby of collecting Missing you cards.Ofcourse it started with a different purpose but ended as an hobby!.The wordings are so beautiful such that those who werent in love will sigh for such moment.Thanks for that store for having such a wonderful collection of cards.I wanna share those beautiful words to u all.
Here goes the first one.

"I picture you there
   while I'm sitting here
trying to distract myself
   from missing you so much.
It's not easy...
   my thoughts always find a way
to come back to you.
 
Your silhouette's in the background
   of every image in my mind,
and your voice runs through my head
   just like a love song.

Sometimes I'll think I see you in a crowd,
   but it's not you-
      it's just wishful thinking.
I want so much to be able
   to touch your arm,hold you close...
      feel your heart beating
         warm against mine.
 But all I'm left with here
   is this incredible sense
      of missing everything about you.

I want you to know
   that everyday
I travel the endless stretch of time
   till we can be together again,
      and every night
I keep the light on in my heart -
  the light of love just for you."
                              -Diana Manning


                     

The Beach!

"The three great elemental sounds in nature are the sound of rain, the sound of wind in a primeval wood and the sound of outer ocean on a beach"-Henry Beston

         The first beach I have gone in my lifetime is the Tranquebar beach.I was fascinated as well as scared to see the giant, vast, never ending sight of nature.One of the greatest package given by nature to us.

Whenever I hear the word "beach" , the first thing that strikes my mind is the Sand.The soft, white, pure sand.Always ready to be moulded into castles, house whatever it is! People used to take off their shoes or slippers while walking on a beach.Many think that is because they dont wanna "sand up" their foot wear.But in my perspective, Sand is one of the ways that nature wants to show its warmth, her feelings. Chilly cold in the early morning expressing Nature's happiness..Turning out to be fiery hot in the noon expressing its anger and finally to a warmth which is of like giving a hug extending her arms.

        Sand also teaches us many things in life..sounds crazy?!Yes, It does. But It is the truth that we cant deny.When we walk on the sand that is away from the ocean, our feet used to get into the soft sand.So what is the truth in that? For me, it tells that "It is always the soft hearted people like the soft sand, gets trampled by the merciless people or their behaviors".

        When we walk on the wet sand, we leave the trails behind.The trail when it is deep, it will last for a long time.If not the ocean itself rubs it off.The traits what we do is the track we leave behind in our life.The trail will be followed if the traits are good, else the trails will be criticized and would be never forgotten if the traits are bad.Difficult to understand rite!

     I always want to meet my lovable ones in the beach.But unfortunately, everytime I do that, I used to get my thoughts lost      deep into the horizon and forget the one sitting by my side.If we want to get a perfect solitude, then my first choice would be the beach.Sitting in the beach and watching the people trying to run away from the waves and in return the waves are like playing with the people, watching the sun goes down is one such masterpiece art of nature, listening to the lapping waves' sound, watching the waves smoothing out the beach sand, those small little crabs running mad in every direction and the stray dogs trying to catch those small critters, the distant lights coming from the boats, the beaming light of the light house....the list goes on and on...

   I always want to sit and watch the things I above said, with the sound of the waves and the wind in my ears, sensing the smell of the beach, with the breeze flowing through my hair. I wish there is one day in future, where I can hold my special someone's hand and go for a long walk in the beach in silence.Ofcourse the previous line is the effect of reading novels of true love..Dont bother it :) But I hope it would be the never forgettable moment in anyone's life.

   

 I hope many of my days would start and end watching the twilight from the beach, watching the full moon dispersing its light in every direction and through the leaves of the coconut tree, the fisherman going into the deep ocean inspite of all the fears for their living, the waves splashing over the rocks, the breeze that makes the fire to be sprayed coming from the charred corn's stove, tuning my frequency of solitude to the silence of the ocean, listening to the melancholy carried away by the wind....

A perfect day spent on or near a beach is one of the perfect days that is LIVED in our life!!

R|A|I|N.....

This post was written by me few months ago...I just want to kickstart again writing the blogs,n this is my first attempt...

After a very long time,I opened this page for penning down something.May be its the "thing" that aroused e from my sleep.The thing I mentioned is Rain.
Rain..Call it as a thing,a person or whatever it is.But it would be the most loveliest in whatever category it belongs.One of Nature's beautiful blessing is Rain..Some like it,Some may not..I belong to the first category..Actually I am more than that..The smell that arouses when the first rain drops touches the earth,its always divine..I could not believe that bacteria are responsible for this..Nature is always surprising!
I love to have a cup of coffee watching the rain splattering outside..Everything becomes fresh after the rain,Everything looks new and b ful after the rain..The dark green leaves with little droplets of rain water and the contrasting deep brown earth..with little puddles of chocolate brown water...Ofcourse I m not talking about the rain in hustling bustling dirty towns..
I would love to go in rain in our bike..Some times rain becomes a pain while riding..As though I am an enemy to it,it shoots out its needle tip rain drops towards me...But I do find the pleasure in pain..I always prefer going by car while raining out..Who would not love a long drive,with music going on in full volume and a scenic mountain at far...Sometimes we even chased the rain too..We have won sometimes by escaping from it and many times we have got caught.I think rain always love to play with us..
All the time,the Rain wants to share our feelings with it..It always makes us to spell out our feelings to it.Whether its a happy one or the opposite,Rain always listen to it.
"I love walking in rain,cos no one knows that I m crying"..This is the quote that always comes to my mind when I think about rain..Its not true actually..cos I feel the rain knows wats going on with you.It always wipes our tears with its tears..Rain is selfless..It doesnt mind getting salty with our tears..
The only Origami art I know is to make a boat and it always comes helpful when its flooded outside..Even a grown up man becomes a child when he enjoys the rain...
Rainy days are always fun...the warmth of the blanket,the aroma of the coffee,the urging to read a novel,closing ur eyes and listening to songs thinking about someone..Every normal thing wat we do daily becomes a very special one when its raining outside....A kinda magical boon it has got!

Heaven on three wheels!

Today I crossed a school on my way to an ATM.It was the end of the day and the children were coming out of the campus by walk,bicycle,car,auto...Auto!!My mind got stuck there and was thinking about my school days.For about 9 years,I went to the school by an autorickshaw..not an "an".It was some 3 or 4.
It was the fourth std when I first went by an auto..I still remember the auto driver (as I call autokaar(sounds silly!)) used to "stuff" us into the auto along with our bags.We were 11 people and he has got an another trip which also includes another set of 11!A great number according to him n not for us.I still remember some moments.Our daily routine is to go to a girl's house where we wait a long time before her house..seeing from a distance she still brushing her hair cooly making us wait..With a loud shout from autokaar,then she comes and we go to a colony through a narrow road..Its not actually a road,its a dirt path made by the people.We used to hang our bags and lunch bags on either side of the auto.And it has become a sort of "rule" that one of our bags gets hit by the side wall in the narrow path and the person sitting by the side of autokaar has to go n pick it.After that we take off with loaded children and its really surprising me, how that three little wheels bore the weight of the 11 ppl.
Speaking of wheels,I went by another auto for nearly 5 years.That was when I really started loving going by auto.The autokaar is real kind and he still remembers me and never forgets to ask about me to my parents.I dont know his name till now cos I used to call him "Vijayaganth autokaar" cos he looked like him!And now coming to the wheels,we should be really careful about them.Twice,my legs have learned about them.
We used to fight(virtually) for the seats and esp for the corner in the baby seat so that we could enjoy a view and also to take a breath!!And the place with the most demands go to the place near the autokaar.I have experienced a lot more times sitting there and its real fun to be there for 2 reasons.One to escape from the crowd back there,2 is to get a thrill as though I m riding the auto.I was real calm in those autos and people actually thought I am a silent girl :)...my 10th std went by an another auto,where I was the senior among the group.It was ok!!
And atlast comes the auto of my 11th and 12th std.I swear I did go to the school regularly on my 11th and 12th not because that I liked it,but I liked the auto.I got an auto mate who was also my class mate and we all enjoyed the 10 kms ride to the school.It was fun..fun...nothing but fun..Pestering the autokaar to get us to a bakery(Its like a National Anthem,asking him daily to take us there)..shouting at him for silly reasons..always asking him to change the songs..singing aloud with the song and sorry people we were really loud that we scared away many of the other riders in the road.We,by the auto goes to the CD shop,whenever a new film is released and buy the CDs.Talking non stoply about something and everything,laughing out loud on every silly jokes coming on the way,nick naming everyone in the auto,Waving a lot of good byes when we get down from the auto as though we are not going to meet tomorrow.It was awesome.These situations were not stable throughout the year.Exam times!!Everyone will be sitting with our books and "mugging up" some questions..our faces would be chalk white and for us its the hard time of the year and for our autokaar its the calm part of the year and ofcourse he knows,there is always a 'calm' before the 'storm'.:)Our autokaar is a person with such a patience cos every evening is a "hunting time".Someone from our group would go to the canteen to get something for us for our ride back home(We saying to autokaar:"Its a long trip home..we could die of starving..we wont last that long!!"..autokaar: "God help me from these creatures!!!!") and mysteriously always getting lost somewhere(meeting her class mate and talking to her) To find this girl,another person is allotted to find out her and she always finds out the other one and her friend n automatically she also joins the chattering and they both return to the auto very late..ending up with the furious face of the autokaar..(For us its nothing..A day of 8 periods seeing the different facial expressions from our teachers,we go numb by the expressions and the face of the autokaar went always unnoticed!!)We used to enjoy the trip back home..ofcourse every school going child would love that only..
I havent gone to the school by a bus.My friends who had come by the bus used to say a lot of stories.I felt bad that time about missing those things.But now,when I think about it..I really really had the greatest time by going by auto.There are many beautiful moments and the above was some from my past which I wanted to share.

The 12 pleasures..

My all time complaint is why the days are going so fast?Especially when its a holiday..I used to think the Earth is a kinda sadist,always gathering speed on weekends...Though all the months of the year are the same,I used to speak proud of my month of birth..when a new calendar comes on my way,I used to see the picture on October..I silently think,that its the only month having a beautiful picture or painting on it..Ofcourse a lot of other months would have more beautiful pictures than this one.But my eyes are blindfolded for the other months.My favorite month of a year is obviously October,cos my birthday falls on that month.Not many of my birthdays come on working days,even when it is on a week day,it would be raining out when I went to the school.My birthday falls on the Halloweens day and my dear ones accepted that its truly apt for me.I wish we also celebrate this day in India!I love October for another reason,Its Diwali.I always feel excited about Diwali..

The next month I love more is November..Who would not love November for its Rainy days?!The days start up with a cloudy weather,start raining and it continues till evening and I always go to bed hearing the rain outside and praying hardly,that it should rain heavily in the night and the next morning I should wake up with the news flash going "All the schools and colleges are closed due to rain".

Then comes December for its cold weather,and for the Christmas and the New Year Eve..I somewhat hated December during my school days cos of the Half Yearly exams..But during my college days,it used to be the sem holidays which I always liked the most.Waking up late in the morning with me muffled up in the blankets,having a cup of coffee leisurely,and surfing through the channels for a  good song..trying to get back home before nite to escape from the freezing weather out there..December is always to chill!

January,the first month of a New year..all the wishes and sms to our frends n enemies to have a great year ahead,with my mind full of the new year resolutions(valid only for the first two weeks),trying to be good in the new year and becoming worn out of the "Good"-myself and returning back to the "Self"-myself in a few hours itself..I like Jan for the holidays..After spending a long vacation during December,my mind always get lost in the holiday mood and always forgets to come back..The Pongal holidays and some other holidays make me feel little happy-sort of mini vacation for me.
February,I dont like it most and I am not even bothered about it.It always go very fast.Good for it.

And comes the March,marching towards me with a lot of depressions.My mind always cries,Oh My God,Here comes the exam season.More than me,my mom used to get worried,cos she has to bear all the whinings from me about the exams and to hear the usual dialogues of "Mom,I havent studied well,I gonna flunk the exam,I feel stupid ...blah blah blah".My mom always says to me "Whether u get stressed out or not,u always make others to go bonkers when u got exams".What to do,she is my mom...have to pass over all these things rite..:)I really hate the sleepless nites,the first sight of my notes and books,hanging over the bookstore for getting the books,puffy eyes on the exam halls...
the ever slogan of mom "I told u know to study before hand..always fussing at the last moment"..the never ending promise of "Here after I ll study daily" and also forgetting the same the moment I enter out of the exam hall....Its been a tragic comedy!
The only thing I like about April is its first day..Always planning to fool someone and always the day ends up with my plan got flopped.I would be the first one to be made fool..Its Ok..It happens..

May month is a good one.During my school as well as college days,Its the favorite month in Summer.Of course waking up late in the morning except the blankets like Dec..I dunno I subconsciously kick away those blankets...Who wants to wake up in a pool of sweat...Yuck!..I love the lazy afternoons,twice-a-day showers,drinking cool water..Though May is the hottest,It is always cool!
June and first half of July are the worst part of the years.I used to search for holidays and always the result is "No Holidays,better luck next time"..Boring lectures in college,Watching the terrible sight of enthusiastic students in the start of the academic year,taking notes,every day is a working day and sometimes like adding fuel to the fire,Saturdays too working days.June and the first part of July totally sucks..I dont wanna talk about it cos it makes me feel sick..
The second half of July and August are always windy...Always trying to hold myself while walking through our college grounds..The worst thing to do in these months is to have a dinner for a function at the terrace,and it becomes more terrible,when the food is served on banana leaf with the glass as the weight to avoid the banana leaf to be thrown away by the wind..Even after these precautions,always the wind wins.The first victim would be the glass and the other follows...And the next thing is about the hair..I used to return from a ride,like a witch with all my hair dancing in the air(I also accept my hair is always like that..Who cares)..

And atlast September,its part windy..part cold..Autumn season is an awesome season..roads covered with dried leaves...plants getting ready to bloom..people dusting off the leaves from their top of their cars in the morning.Its a treat for our eyes.For me its a calm part of the year..No hurry,no exams,nothing just relax and do the work...Always September is beautiful...and I always love it cos the next month is October!!

Holding the Palette..

What If God  preferred his painting to be a black and white one?How would it be to see a world,where everything is black and white?Ah!It scares me a lot when i think in the other way..
I personally think colors play a vital role in our life..A small baby gets excited when he or she sees the splashing colors..Paintings are nothing without colors(Remember black n white are also colors)..Colors give life to the photographs..Colors even represent the various moods of the people..the angry red,the serene blue,the submissive black,the peaceful white,...Nature has selected its colors very meticulously..The vast azure sky,spread out evenly over our earth,like a blanket for our earth expresses the warmth and makes us wonder that the sky is the limit..But we dont know how long the sky goes...the deep blue sea reflects the mood of the sky..It turns blue,turns black..working like a mirror for the sky..We could always see the brilliance of colors during the sunset.The red dot above our head provides us always with a visual treat...from orange to the fiery red n puff gone and comes the total darkness,like an empire of the kingdom and leads us into the complete solitude of darkness....The earthly brown carefully confiding the greatest enemies of all time the purest transparent water and the hot golden lava beneath its surface..The autumn mustard color,and the following lustrous green where the endless new born flowers dancing cheerfully with their different shaded new dresses...

When I was little,I eagerly wait for the festivals..not to eat sweets or go clinging to God to give this or that..I always look ahead for putting the colorful rangolis with my mom and my neighbors..Staying late at nite and mixing the various colors,evenly sprinkling it over,and accidentally giving the face a color powder facial..it all gives pleasure.

One of the loveliest festivals of India is the Holi..The festival of colors..splashing the colors all around,chasing a friend to paint his face with the colors..turning the white dress into a complete new colorful set..Its meant for spreading the happiness in the way of spreading the colors.

When people are asked about colors,the first thing that automatically comes to their mind is the Rainbow.. The seven colors,crown the earth with a very beautiful arch..I wonder where that arch leads us to..My favorite most colors are black and blue..Black the mightiest of all,always dominating the other colors,selfishly absorbing all the colors n protesting to reflect,symbolizing the darkness,secrecy..The blue,favorite color for most of the people as well as for most of the natural elements like the sky,the sea,..even our Earth is called the Blue planet, always endearing,reflecting its calm nature...

I always love to paint..I am not good at color painting,but now I am trying to learn the colors by heart..the spectacular way of blending colors to make a new color.Colors always symbolizes happiness.I have seen many people who have seen my black and white sketchings and commented "Y r u not trying to color it?"..Our eyes always thrive for a colorful treat.From our food to the dresses we wear,we want colors everywhere..Whether its a party or a fair,we love to hang the colorful papers all over,fly the colorful balloons,trying to paint the whole place with all the colors we have... It would be an endless post when I go deep into the colors,I would always love to save the colorful moments of my life and ....
I would always love to avoid feeling blue,suppressing my black thoughts from everyone,spreading the cool green thoughts with a deep red heart in a white peaceful manner...

Push the Pause button!

"What is this life,if full of care

  No time to stand and stare"

A lovely poem "Leisure" written by W.H.Davies and its my favorite most.

My mind always ask me a question "Whats the rush!"

I am a kinda person who always dream about moving out of a city and living on a peaceful,calm place.I have seen people working so hard,so that they can enjoy a sophisticated life in future without even having the time to stop by and enjoy the nature.I dunno what people will gain by not enjoying the present and always think about the future.I hope the word "sophistication" doesnt  mean getting a huge amount as a salary,not having time to spend with family and living in a concrete jungle where when we open a window we cant see a bird or a tree.Of course we can see a picture of a bird hanging on our neighbor's room.

People are always in a hurry.The whole week they spend in the office and the  week ends either goes as a company's picnic or a tired,worn out day at home.

In our house,we have a stone bench in the terrace facing the west.I always love to enjoy the sun set from there.I sometimes go and sit there with my ears muffled up with my ear phones and sometimes I just sit n watch as the sun goes down.I love the breeze that flows through..Used to wonder,how many people it would have seen on its way,has it heard the talks of my friends and enemies?has it enjoyed the fragrance of a distant land's rain,has it made a flower to dance,how many people's secrets it carry on its way here...Does the breeze gossip about the people to some one?

On watching the birds flying away..always some questions arise...are they returning home after their day's work?I always feel jealous of them..they dont need anyone's permission or a passport to fly.Have they experienced a day in the passport office waiting for their turn to come and prove this is truly me with some certificates...?!Why cant we also swing on a branch,when the wind gently sways the branch for us.

I love to spend time on the terrace on rainy days.Always love to get drenched in the rain.With all the struggles with my mom,I go to the terrace with an Umbrella!!But when I reach the top,as though the wind doesnt want that umbrella,it always blow away the umbrella..I envy those birds enjoying the rain and watch some carefully hidden under the canopy of trees....I always notice that people would go out in the frying weather of a Summer day..But when the rain comes,even for a drizzle they run to escape from the rain.I hope this is the reason,the rain is rare at our places.It seems it doesnt want to come to our places..I hope they complain "People are afraid of me"..One of my lecturers use to say,"Rain is not dangerous...it doesnt carry any diseases..The thing is people dont wash away their legs after they get drenched in rain...Its a myth that people  catch cold when they go out in rain"..I agree with him.Again humans are responsible,they keep the surroundings unclean...Ofcourse its obvious we get germs when we walk through these unclean places..Dont again blame it on the Rain!!Mother Nature is always clean..

Cloud watching is another pleasure for free..I love to see the sun streaks,glittering the borders of the clouds..n especially during the cloudy days,love to watch the way the black clouds mingle with each other.They are always in a move,always traveling to some places..sometimes they pass hurriedly to somewhere..I would like to ask them their destinations..

Darkness...People consider it as a negative word and only some realize that we can only experience the light in the darkness...It can be taken in other sense too for our life..For me darkness is one where we can enjoy the total solitude..Without the sounds of the people or the vehicles,we can listen to the sound of nature...Listen..Mother Nature is always trying to say something to us..I hope we are lucky that we got the moon as our satellite..Moon is always lovely to watch,whether its a full moon day..or just a crescent...Sometimes we can have a glimpse of the Venus too,the morning and evening star...I always prefer a black blanket of sky with the moon and few stars.Stars are also beautiful,but I dont like to watch when there are so many many stars studded in the sky.I always love to watch the moon moving with us when we travel...Oh my God its always following us..:)I sometimes think the moon wants to become like Saturn with a ring around it.

Nature has given us so many gifts and we are the one who dont have time to open the gifts.

"No time to see,when woods we pass

Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass"

I havent seen a squirrel hiding its nuts in grass.But I always see the squirrels at our backyard going up and down the tree merrily and munching the food,my mom has kept there for them.Sometimes I have seen the fight between them to eat the food.Sometimes they are brave enough to stand against the crows to eat their meal.Brave little ones.

There is a dog in our street,which always stares at me like a normal human.Oh those eyes...:)It looks like reading my mind.Its a friendly dog but I am always afraid of it cos of its size.

There is also a street cat,which comes always with the majestic walk,brave enough to come inside the house and see for food.So sad,it always ends up in the wrong room except the kitchen and got shooed away all the time..Better luck next time kitty...

"No time to stand beneath the bough

And stare as long as sheep or cows"

One of my close friends used to say that our street looks like a little zoo for her.There is a house in our street where they have many poultries..and a dog.And sometimes I  see some goats walking by our street and having the leaves of our plant as their breakfast.I love to give the leaves,but they would hardly accept to eat from my hands and they always prefer to eat by themselves.Attitude!

These are just some teenie weenie things in my life I always notice n wanted to share...

I dunno whether I would be able to relive all these moments.But I am sure,I would always have time to enjoy the nature,relieve myself from the daily struggles and have serenity.Wats the use thinking all about the future and letting the present to go waste?I want to enjoy the present to the fullest so that I dont regret that I had lost the moment.We might not have a forward or rewind button for our life.But we are always provided with a pause button.Search for it...Its there..We simply dont take the time and patience to search for it!